August 9, 2007

That White Neon.

Posted in Angels, Death, Family, God, Granny., Life, Personal, Religion, vacation at 10:55 pm by Kaylaface.

angel.gifThe car from my past, the one that the Grim Reaper himself now drove, passed me the other day and I knew it was time. That was the moment I truly realized I believe in angels. I’m not big on religion or God or any of that stuff, but I truly believe in angels. Not the harp playing ones assisting the God I have trouble believing in when we go to Heaven, but angels who are beings that have a sole purpose: to guide us through life. My grandmother was mine. Even now she’s gone, I know she’s still my guardian angel guarding me from harm and guiding me through this journey through life.

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July 28, 2007

Sex, Sex, and more Sex.

Posted in Family, God, Life, Personal, school, Sex at 5:29 am by Kaylaface.

I just read something that really disturbed me. Something about some guy taking over the sex education stuff in Texas or some place. Abstinence is the only way to go until marriage.

Excuse my French, but, Bullshit.

My teenager instincts say, “What if the sex is bad? You can’t get out of it because you’ve already tied yourself down by getting married. You’re stuck that way.”

Personally, I’m not waiting for marriage. I’m also not going to go whore myself around. I want to be in love, or at least really comfortable with the person. There have only been two people I could even picture myself “doing the deed” with. One of which I’ve begun to question. Actually, both of them come to think of it.

But that’s me, being safe. Watching out for me. That’s the mature side of me that apparently doesn’t exist to some people. Read the rest of this entry »

April 25, 2007

The Almighty Part 2

Posted in God, Life at 3:07 am by Kaylaface.

I don’t know what to believe in anymore. I question myself and my faith all the time, and I have since she died. But now it’s even worse. I blame everything on God, when half the time I say I don’t even believe. I just wish she’d come down and help me. She put the faith in me, then when she died, so did my faith. I want to believe in God for her. Because I know if I believe in God, then I believe she’s really truly happy. I said some things that I shouldn’t have and then someone said some other things that really made me think and cry.

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April 19, 2007

The Almighty.

Posted in Family, God at 3:04 am by Kaylaface.

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So God’s supposed to be this great thing. All-powerful, all-knowing, perfect, creator of all things good and evil. But why would he want evil? I mean, if he loves his children so damn much, why make them suffer? I mean, who would want to watch their children suffer? That’s what we are after all : God’s children.

Then will someone please tell me why I can’t catch a friggin break from Him??? I’m only 15 years old. I shouldn’t have to be going through this crap.

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